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As I reflect on turning FIFTY, I’m aware of the impact the THIRTIES and the FORTIES have had…. it’s a little long, but hell I’m old enough now that I’ve had lots of time to consider and be retrospective.
For me the THIRTIES were about making things happen. There was an urgency to prove what I know and how I could make a difference. Then I was running a school. I was helping teachers be better teachers. I was birthing babies. I was helping babies grow into thoughtful, grounded, young people. I was doing most of that work because I believed I knew the best practices that would have the impact that I wanted. I was coaching people to be more than they believed possible. I ran a half marathon to prove to myself that I could. I was learning from raising children that I actually didn’t know everything, and that life could not always be controlled. I was “having it all, but not all at the same time” and found that to be challenging but not insurmountable. There was much to do…and I was DOING it.
For me the FORTIES were about living out loud the things that I cared about. Then it was important to me not to hide. Then I didn’t feel like I had to prove anymore, but I still felt the strong urge to DO many things. (a couple more half marathons, a couple of triathalons, lots of workshops) It felt really important to hold everything together and provide space for growth and development to occur–both in my work and in my home. With less “having to prove” I simply felt content in doing the things that I loved and sharing those things with other people. (still DOING) I loved and still love making things, dancing, sharing messages on LTLYLead that other people wrote, raising children with my husband, working in the field of leadership and coaching, thoughtful conversations, reading, playing, learning. It felt important to invite others to join me.
….and there was a DIP in the forties for me. In my late forties I realized that not everyone loves the things that I love. In my younger years I would have spent lots of time building that love with others, or trying to convince others ….but not anymore. I just didn’t have the time or attention for that. While I was eventually able to accept it, that also meant acknowledging the pain that some things that I care deeply about are not honored by others. Ouch. I struggled with being and doing enough. Ouch Ouch. For me it’s different from “proving”. While I began to realize what brought me most joy, and what in my self I most valued. . . I battled with my self about whether that being/doing was enough for the world and enough for me. Truth be told some days were very painful. Some relationships have fallen away. Some have grown.
In my late forties I’ve also realized that while my life was VERY full and sometimes crazy hectic…..much would change SOON. In a couple of years two of our three children will be out of the house. You know how they say having children will change your life? Well of course it does, and it did. The realization also hit that having adults will change our lives. I know that it will. The thought came. . .when the nest is empty, will I be empty? Yes, let that really sink in. when the nest is empty, will I be empty? Well mucking around in that question was, shall we say interesting, and provided much fodder for reflection. It’s led me to what I think FIFTIES will be about, or at least what I am stepping into.
For me, FIFTY is a time to acknowledge how the first half of my life has impacted the me that I am today. I consider myself extremely fortunate to have led the life I’ve led thus far. Of course there have been ups and downs, pain and joy….and much learning. While the THIRTIES were PROVING, and the FORTIES were DOING….a whole lot of action…for me FIFTIES feel like it might be different. I feel more HUMILITY now. Now I exercise not because I have something to prove, but rather because I know that the body is a fragile instrument that unless well cared for, will break down. Some of you know that as of January 1, 2015 I started the #50challenge. Fifty pushups, fifty sit-ups, and recently added fifty squats…everyday. Today I’m adding 50 minutes of walking….everyday. In my forties I would have invited you to walk with me, or set up a class for us all to do it together. Now I’m owning the #50challenge for myself. I’m not moving into isolation. Rather, I’m doing the things that I love because I love them, AND I want to be invited. YOU invite me to walk, or to do a workshop, or to go on an adventure. You see, I’ve held it together, and created the spaces for my self, my family, my work to grow. I’ve held the container for all of us….and now I am putting it down. KATHUNK DOWN. We can pick it up together, but I’m not picking it up by myself and holding it on my own for everyone. That is such a liberating statement! It feels incredibly freeing. So I’m FIFTY. I’m still raising teenagers, and making beautiful custom art to wear or hang in your space, and dreaming about new programs to customize, and delivering leadership programs, and spending time with my friends (my husband is included in this group-lucky me)….but FIFTY feels like an opportunity to do all these things with a new freedom ( i.e. less holding), and a deeper sense of humility.
FIFTIES are a time to “be with”. Invite me to walk with you. Invite me to work with you. Invite me to play with you. Invite me to talk with you. Invite me to hold the you you are becoming. I’ve got the skills and I’ve got the experience. I’ve got the comfort with not knowing everything, and the deepening understanding that that is enough, because I LOVE THE LIFE I LIVE, imperfections and all. I’m not going to be sitting here waiting for the invitation because I am not holding on anymore, yet I want you to know that I would LOVE to be invited, and ….I am moving with utter joy and humility into my fifties.
**who by the way found so many typos that she had retype this post 5 times. TAHDAH!
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As one of the seven factors of enlightenment, joy is not only a fruit of awakening but also a prerequisite. Joy creates a spaciousness in the mind that allows us to hold the suffering we experience inside us and around us without becoming overwhelmed, without collapsing into helplessness or despair.
– James Baraz, “Lighten Up!”
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January 15 I co-led a program to move into 2015 with integrity and connected to what matters most to each of us.
Tonight I’m sharing the poem that emerged from me from that morning’s meditation.
What an important reminder for me
Opens the door of acceptance.
Through the door is a vast open space for ALL parts of me to exist and dance.
I surrender. . .
Quiets my very busy mind
I am who I am
My heart gets a little bolder, my mind begins to listen, as my soul begins to speak…..
Only a whisper now, but nonetheless a message.
May you open your heart, your mind, and your soul; May you surrender; and may you be blessed by the messages that emerge.
2015 is weeks away. Are you loving the life you lead?
If yes, celebrate what you are doing and tell your friends and neighbors. Invite them to join you and share what you love. Your willingness to share your most heartfelt joys will inspire.
If no, over the next few weeks consider what would move you towards loving your life. Make a list of big and small things. Tell all your friends and neighbors. Invite them to join you in claiming ONE thing to claim and do in 2015. Your boldness and bravery will inspire.
If you have no idea how to answer the question…hire a coach. Tell all your friends and neighbors. We all have moments of unclarity (us that even a word?!?). Your courage to wonder will inspire.
The Fall and Winter Holidays in the USA officially begin next week. Regardless of where you live, what family traditions you practice, what holidays you celebrate. . . from now until December 31, 2014 you have an opportunity to love the life you are leading.
For some of us this a profoundly joyful time. For others it is hard andheartbreaking. Have compassion for those who are struggling. Invite someone to join you in reflecting on what’s lovely in your lives, what’s yearning for more attention, and what’s tugging at your heart.
Dream a little.
Let go and let come.
Do whatever it takes, becuase this is your 2014 season.
May you courageously live your heart’s desires out loud and in full view during this holiday season, and may you be blessed by your bravery. May you give and receive heartfelt and unconditional love….accept for when you don’t. . . and then, may you be blessed.